Happy New Year

Against all odds, here we are again, facing a new year.

This past year was overwhelming, with change around every corner. Certainly it was the most exhilarating end to my adolescence. Yet through all that, I think I somehow managed to stick to my resolutions. I've cut my hair short - something I've been thinking about doing for a couple of years now. I've also (kind of) learnt to not regret the choices I make. I haven't quite managed to lose as much weight as I'd intended to, but surely that can be made up for.

This past year, like a chapter out of my life story, wove its tale around two intertwined but wholly separate concepts. Love and Loss; which every teenager stepping past the threshold into adulthood ought to prepare themselves for. Selfless and unconditional Love - as Love should be, and Loss; pitch black and hollow.

I've felt Love tug at my heartstrings, let Loss consume my spirit. Still I believe I'm now better for it. I feel old, yes. Beyond my years, and much wiser. The "what if"s and "if only"s that previously clouded my view of the future have been left behind with the past year. I bring with me now only the better memories, the lessons learnt from past failures, true friends.

This year, I'm hoping for change and stability. Change in mindset, attitude and choices in life; Stability in relationships and financial matters.


This time, I know I'll get it right.
How can I not, with an angel guiding my path?




2008.



Like a prayer, come what may.

AnRu reminisced at 11:30:00 PM.