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Sunday, April 20, 2008 I am, I really am. And I've been thinking a lot. I finally know why now. 18 Sept 07 - 17 April 08. I wish we could have had that talk earlier, then maybe we wouldn't have had to break up. I wish I could have realized it sooner so I wouldn't have torn us apart. But what's done is done, and I'm just glad I've had the chance. We had good times, baby. I'll remember them. I still love you, but now as a friend. Think we're better as friends. Now to get my life back on track before I push anyone else away. I think we can handle that, can't we? Growing up is easy. AnRu reminisced at 8:45:00 PM.
I can't live, if living is without you. I can't give, can't give anymore. It's all over, just like that. All my fairytale dreams, castles in the skies. I don't know why. I don't understand it. I would give anything, bend to fit any mold, for him. But it's just not good enough; I don't have anything left to give. It started with denial. I saw it coming a long time ago, yet still failed to be ready for it. 'It will not happen', I told myself. But it did. Even after it did, I told myself it wasn't real; it's only temporary. Then was desperation - going insane when calls went unanswered. Now it's a sharp pain in the side, a maroon hurt. There's still this wonder, this amazement, this... 'Wow, I never knew I could hurt so much'. Why isn't love enough? Why send me someone to promise the future then brutally snatch him away? Why chide me for being cynical and pessimistic then provide justification for my negativity? But most of all, why can't you accept that I love you? AnRu reminisced at 1:35:00 AM.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better If I don't try and I don't hope What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there No more waiting, No more aching No more fighting, No more trying Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there Love me.. AnRu reminisced at 3:07:00 PM.
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