Fifth day of the snow

Day 124:

I should be pursuing more worthwhile activities but I'd rather be here, talking to you.

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It's like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again doesn't seem to work. And you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.


How often have you put fingers to that rubbery mask only to find streams flowing from those two deep dark pools that scare you so?



Their watery depths no longer sparkle.
They're pools of still water.
There's no life in still water.




Christmas cheer is getting to everyone and they all want to know "How are you?"

Not great, folks. Not great.


But for your benefit, it's all good. It's never been better.
And how are you, darling?

AnRu reminisced at 9:57:00 PM.